Angel and Me

Me: I can’t stand life anymore.
Angel: Don’t say such words, please!
Me: But it is the truth. I cannot live without her.
It is my breath.
Angel: You have to fight it. Our Lord will never let you without help. He will always be with you like me. Have faith!
Me: it is very difficult. I see her almost every day and I break in silent tears. I love her. Please, tell me that everything will be fine. I need to hear it.
Angel: Everything will be fine. I told you, have faith. You don’t know God’s will and why all these are happening. But be sure for that.. It is for your own good.
Me: Maybe.. but I can’t stand it. It is the first time that I feel like that. All these years, for me or for others, I knew how to recognize the signs, good or bad, and I was always right. This time, I feel like a fish out of water.
Angel: As I said before, all happen for a reason. Every life is like a book and in yours, you are the main character. This book was written by the Lord and He writes only best-sellers.
Me: Thank you. You gave me courage but you didn’t take my pain away.
Angel: I cannot do that. Is a quest that you have to pass alone. Be strong.
Me: I cannot be, without her smile, without her kiss, without her love. Please tell me what to do.
Angel: Only one thing. Pray!

Raph

The Dream

Yesterday, I saw a dream.
It was so beautiful that I didn’t want to wake up.
In that dream I saw my desire.
I saw ourselves be together again.
Yesterday I smiled for the first time after months.
Imagine… even in the dreams, you give hope, you give happiness.
You don’t know how beautiful it is to see you in my dreams.
Through them, I live the world that we have lost.
Through them, I take courage to face up with life.
But.., all these are just fantasies.
Is like a ghost that trying to prevail in the real world.
You cannot touch it, you cannot see it, only feel it.
This killed me!
I woke up and went at the window to see the stars.
Five of them had fallen. I didn’t make five wishes but one wish, five times.
To be together again.
I love you ‘my angel’.

Raph

The Only Way

The only way to forget,
is to forgive.
The only way to forgive,
is to love.
The only way to love,
is to be patient.
The only way to be patient,
is to have faith.
Have faith in the feelings,
have faith in your heart,
don’t listen to your mind,
have faith in God.
Feelings are often true.
Heart is always telling the truth.
Mind is always playing tricks.
God, the evil kicks.
Heart knows your secret desire
while your feelings are on fire.
Only mind says that is not right,
in order the people to feel alright.
I love you! How can I express it?
The pain is nailing my heart
like a spear in flames.
It never rests. It never sleeps.
It is always fighting against the lips.
Mind and heart are at war
with the feelings in the middle.
They try to prevail at each other
while the tear falls like a needle.
The purpose of the battle
is the owning of your stolen heart.
I love you ‘my heart’.

Raph

The Choice

The only common among people,
is death.
But everyone has the choice
of how he is going to die.
Is it weird? No!
If you die without any good written in your heart,
then you are lost.
The purpose of mankind is to meet God, not necessarily
in heaven but on earth.
The means of doing it, is Love.
You must have faith in people!
You must love them like yourself!
But… sometimes love is hurting us.
You see… it is in our nature to find and live with the other
half of our heart.
What a difficult mission!
One simple mistake and you will never forget the pain.
After that, you have to try hard to get on your feet again.
Have courage!
Keep loving. Keep believing.
Life has taught us something important..
If you want to stay alive, you must be alone.
If you want to love, be prepared to suffer!

Raph

Fly

I wish I knew how to fly.
To see new highlands, new people.
To meet new emotions.
Release myself from the slavery.
But…
Without you, I cannot continue.
You are my wings.
You are the guide of my soul.
I cannot live without you.
Only if we could be fairies in order to fly away.
Leave everything behind.
Together we could change the world.
Can’t you see it?
Today you have your birthday.
I wish you to live forever from the depths of my heart.
I love you ‘my angel’.
Please, come back and let ourselves open their wings and fly to a different world.
A world of fantasy and magic.
The world of love.

21/5/2008
Raph

The Description

At this writing, I ‘ ll try to describe yourself.
My purpose is to remind myself what I have lost
and in the same time, let the others learn how beautiful you are.
From what may I begin!!! Your eyes. You are saying that you cannot find something good on them. That they are ordinary. I am saying that your eyes are the most beautiful part of yours. I stare at them and see your inside world. I see the proof that you are not lying.
Your smile. What can I say about it. It is my breath. Whenever I see you smiling, I take courage to continue.
It is the brightest thing I have ever seen.
Your lips. They release the desire to kiss them and never leave them.
Your hands. They have something special. Most of the times are cold but warm your inside. I feel it whenever I hold them.
Your heart. It is full of kindness. It is in your nature to make people happy. If you fell in love, I am sure that you will give all your love, all your heart, all your soul, all your mind in order to succeed.
If you ever read this text, please don’t get angry..
Whatever I wrote, I mean it. I feel lucky just for these two weeks.
Do not question yourself if I have forgiven you. The answer is, from that moment.
I am in love with you. I will be waiting you.
Every night I pray to God to send an angel on you and when I’m gone, if I am worth, to send me as your guardian angel.
My love, my heart, my light, my treasure, my life! How much I miss our messages. I would give even my life in order to be together again.
I love you ‘my angel’.

Raph

Guardian Angel

My guardian angel.

I love you so much.

You are the only one who give me strength.

Only you!

You cover me under your wings.

You protect me with your sword.

You bless me with the bless of our Father in Heaven.

Only if I could talk to you. To speak to you for

the problems that I have.

The answers that I am looking for.

Only if I could see you in order to take courage

from your beauty.

Stare at you and see just a small piece of the

Kingdom of Heaven.

How much I need your advice!

How much I need you to guide me to the right way.

Please show yourself. I know that you are next to me.

I know that most of the times I make you sad.

Don’t leave me alone.

Please take my prayers to our Father.

Ask for His mercy. Save me from this world.

They say that the right man is only falling in love

with God and His angels.

But I failed. I fell in love with an “angel” on earth.

So, please help me.

Take my pain away. I beg you.

Angel, remember me to your prayers.

God, remember me when you come to your Kingdom.

The letter

For a soul…,

In rainy days,

when you are sitting at your home,

you stare at the drops while hitting the window.

You hear the wind blowing with a desperate cry

that nailing your heart.

You see the stars watching you in their bright sadness

while you try to understand why you are alone.

What was that had the blame for your loneliness.

You try not to forget the good moments of the past.

Old pictures near you, are the living proof of the

happiness that caused you to give freely your smile

which even sun is not brighter or more beautiful.

But now, the things have changed. A moment of weakness

was enough to destroy our world.

I wish I knew the advice that you may have taken

then, in order to tell you that nothing will come

between us, neither situations nor people.

Anyway, I don’t know if you still love me. But I will

be waiting you. I love you so much.

I have forgiven you from that moment.

Now, I am watching you staring at me, laugh and cry.

“My love”, how many times I have thought of hold you again,

of kiss you again, of be with you again.

I pray to God, only to know what you are thinking of.

You were, you are and you will be my eternal love.

I wrote this letter to you because I feel something.

I feel that I will not be here for much longer.

I have this sense months ago.

But, please don’t worry. My spirit will guide you through

your life.

Will guide you even through your most bitter moments.

I am going to give you the courage you need to continue.

I am going to hold your hand at your life steps.

I am going to be your guardian angel.

This is my last writing.

Goodbye! I hope to see you in this world or in the other…

Raph